There comes a point in our lives when we start analyzing every move we make. Why we go out, why we keep certain friends, why we work so much, where will I be today, tomorrow, why did I do what I did 9 years ago, and then the infamous WHAT IF I hadn’t done this or that !

Life is certainly full of questions and definitely no guarantees. If there were guarantees then everyone would have a Fairy Tale to tell. My Fairy Tale consists of me finding myself.

Sudden drastic changes in a person’s life force them to make an introspection into their own mind. The results we may not always agree upon however true they may be. We will always live in denial, sticking by our decisions and our actions, and this is how it should be. Should it?

I feel like I’ve lived someone elses life for the past couple of years. I don’t know who I am, I don’t know what I like, I don’t know what I don’t like, I don’t know why I do what I for work, I don’t know when I got so bloody lost! All I remember is pretending to be someone I wasn’t by heart. I remember changing my ways to fit the ways of people around me. I tried so hard to fit in, but I really didn’t. I remember having so many friends, but I really didn’t. I remember having such a good time, is that is what a good time is? I mean, don’t get me wrong, I had a blast! Some things, very questionable :-)

I made a decision to just be me. One of the smartest things I have ever, ever done. I don’t care that I am a goofy guy who makes mistakes and eats with the wrong fork at the dinner table and then proceeds to make and ass of myself just because it will make people laugh. I wear what makes me comfortable. I listen to music that makes me feel good. I run because it makes me healthier.

I keep learning new things about me, like, I really enjoy enjoy dancing. It is a big part of my life and would be a HUGE sacrifice if I had to let go of it. I like chocolates, shhhhhh don’t tell anyone, especially since I pretend to be such a health nut. I’ve wanted to cut my hair short for years now, but didn’t because I was told that I wouldn’t look good. Just do it. Life’s too short to live it for someone else. They have their own life and been dealt their own cards, they don’t need mine.

Never before have I ever felt so loved by my family, friends and most importantly myself.

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“You don’t need to lead an interesting life. You need to see the significance in your own life.”